Nic, that was really a beautiful way to propose!
I had thyroid failure due to autoimmune. It went undiagnosed for quite a while. That led to severe panic attacks and a slight case of agoraphobia. Mostly because everything kicked off a panick attack so I feared even leaving the house.
I'm completely healthy now, but I think I am drawn to darker subject matter because of this. Part of my psyche was carved from that time, and no matter how good I feel now, I still have that lingering around.